Date : Thursday, November 12, 2009
Time : 12:54 AM
Title : expectations?

Sometimes, i feel that, i don't know, i'm expecting too much from him? yes, i feel that way. but maybe its due to the fact that i'm used to getting such treatment but i'm not getting any similar from the current one. Indeed, he is different. but.. too much of a culture shock for me. Everytime i don't get the same treatment, i will always remind myself that he's different so i have to close one eye. but what kind of treatment do i actually want, actually expect from him? I'm always looking at his flaws . I know its bad but i can't help it. I'm so protective this time round. and it bugs me for this is not the usual me. I don't like to be controlled so i don't control others. but not him. I make big fuss over trivial matters when its him. why? i don't know. seriously. i don't know why i'm being so protective this time round.