Date : Saturday, September 20, 2008
Time : 9:00 PM
Title : happy and sad.

Happy and Sad I am.
I'm like finally done with my canvas painting. * wide grin *.
although it sucks, at least, i've done it so yeah. Left with a few touchups which has to be done with by Monday during the intensive class and recess time also. Done with canvas but still not over yet, I still have to finish up my prepwork boards, that clearly means more colouring and drawing ahead. sob sob.

Its rather obvious to all that i'm stuck in my past.
The more i tried to forget about it, the more i will start to think about it.
It sucks big time but i just don't know.
well, whatever it is, i'll put it aside for now and start to concentrate on my studies.

i pretended to move on but deep deep inside me, I still want you.

Labels: let's pretend.

Date : Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Time : 12:26 AM
Title : killer subject.

current mood/feeling : freaking tired

well, i can swear to god that i'm feelin really tired. burning midnight oil on some of the days to do art is seriously killing me. going to school as early as seven and heading back home as late as six plus plus. to top it all, i still have tuition classes. my oh my, i still have to bear with it for like 5 weeks more and hopefully i'll get done with it well and not just for the sake of getting done with it. have been painting in school, and i must say that my painting is getting from bad to worse, haha! serious shits siah, its really bad. yesterday was the first day of back to normal school timetable, and i was already sleeping, not only me lah actually, almost all the art students in class were sleeping, can say power nap for us just to boost a little bit of energy. ah-ngien was being really thoughtful, he didn't even woke us up throughout his period except for the last few minutes cos he wanted to teach me some maths. oh yeah, speaking of that. i did quite badly for my prelims. argh ! due to art, we don't really have much time to study but at the end of the day, it is still our fault for not managing our time well so my fault my fault. i guess that is about all, wanna continue my art.

ziema taking off

more about my art piece:
titled it " my complicated life"
it kind of, someway somehow reflect my life.
where there is some parts filled with dull and some parts filled with bright and funky colours.
but its more to the dull colours.
like my life, its rather dull and sometimes happiness just pop in anytime
but happy moments in my life can be counted but not the dull ones.
so yeah, this is partly what is on my canvas.

Labels: friends.

Date : Saturday, September 13, 2008
Time : 11:10 PM
Title :

picture was taken from the back of my class's noticeboard. cool eh?

anyway, lets get on with the education part.

art? i think there is still light of hope for it..done with transferring my final design drawings onto the canvas ( like finally ) after the few times of rejection by the art teacher. so now, i'm halfway through the painting which is getting on my nerves cos i just suck in adding colours to my drawing. I'm a person who likes to draw but hate to colour. so yeah, hopefully my canvas will turn out well after the painting.

I have to finish my artsy stuffs by 16th, afterwhich i'll start to organise myself and get into the mood of studying. have to brush up on my maths and principles of account( i don't even understand a single thing about this subject). Other subjects such as physics and chemistry will just require me to read up the thick textbook and notes to be ready for it and not to forget the most irritating paper which requires alot of memorising, social studies ( can die le do this paper ).

Have to really cheong for this one whole month plus plus to get ready for my olevels.

i guess this is all, not much to blog today.

:)

Date : Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Time : 11:21 PM
Title : go away, please.

well, there is something which is buggin me now. i should say a feeling, a feeling which can't simply shake off me. its been months since i stop thinking bout it or ever had that feeling with me but it came back, sudden one i must say. i don't know why but the feeling just came.
i had no intentions to think bout him anymore cos i'm clearly aware that he is out of my life. he's happy now so i really need to move on. too bad i keep saying that over and over again but ended up doing nothing, but it is slowly killin me from inside. i let my emotions take control of me, which is bad. moodswings here and there with no valid reasons. my friends are the victims and i'm truly sorry, no intention of doing that to you guys. for now, i'll have to put aside my feelings and set my priorities right. prelims are on but my mind is still daydreaming.
so, have to stop daydreaming and get on with the studyin.

oh yeah, good luck to all those who are doing your prelims.

and,
thanks good friend for the listening ear and,
girlfriends, you guys are the best.
never fail to make me laugh every single day.
and to my other two gf, you guys are not forgotten even though our friendship are starting to break apart.
:)

Labels: i guess., time will not tell

Date : Friday, September 05, 2008
Time : 1:03 AM
Title : burning the midnight oil.

haha ! its one in the morning and i'm still not in my bed.
art is in my way so yeah, have to burn the midnight oil to finish up all the stuffs.
its really gettin on my nerves and i can't stand it no more but what can i do? pratically nothing.
so have to continue doing this artsy stuff and get it done with to show to my mad art teacher first thing later at 8 in the morning.
today is gonna be a long day for me again. having art from morning till noon and tuition is next. Tuition is gonna be from 5.30 to 9.30 like usual so gonna break fast there again. ( boring ! )
ok lah..i think that is all for now. will publish another post soon.
want to continue doing my art for now.

ziema is taking off.