Date : Thursday, May 28, 2009
Time : 11:04 PM
Title : hmm.

today?
had the financial literacy workshop and also life connections workshop.
financial literacy workshop was damn boring except for the part when we had to play the board game. hees. I'm an engineer but i lost to a janitor, like wtf. yes, she won and she got starbucks voucher for herself. ( must belanje me hor, k tk tawu malu. ) so yeah.
life connections workshop? this is where the fun really started. yes, i swear i had fun.
with beloved classmates who were damn bloody happening.
and not to forget Candice the speaker. yes, she did a great job. enjoyed her workshop most.
after school was the activist meeting. i ended up with the coaching and tutoring instead of young children. pfft. and why is that? cos there's too many people in the young children group. -.-
so yeah, and next was silat of course. training was okay i guess for today, not really that tiring.
that's bout it i guess for today.yes, i miss him.

k, BYE. :D

Date : Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Time : 10:22 PM
Title : Abdul Aziz.

Abdul Aziz have turned a year older today.

HAPPY BIRTDAY AYAH !

I've got nothing much to say except for I love you, ayah.
Hahs, yeah. but seriously i love my father. Who doesn't, right?
I Really appreciate what he have done for me in life.
and and and
i feel really bad for not buying him anything except for a pathetic card.
damn, shall buy you something soon okay ayah.
something to complete the adidas set that you've got now.

ok, had GP Paper just now.
errr..i'm not sure if i can consider it easy or so-so or hard.
idon'tknow.
went to imm with the shaz and q after that, ate at banquet.
then home was next.
slept till bout idk what time then off to school again. for what? for silat.
sumpah! like no life.
like yt said just now, " how to have boyfriend if training is thrice a week? "
hmm. time management skill needed.
so yeah, ivp is really around the corner. one more week.
fcuk, one more week. so fcuking idk what i feel now or how to feel maybe.
[ insert name ] is irritating cos she asked me to gain weight.
when coach asked us to stay at a comfortable weight.
and coach uh, nice way of translating malay words to english.
in coach dictionary, kuda-kuda= horse-horse.
and coach got pms also, like wtf.
and and talking bout pms, it seems that everybody seems to be in a foul mood today.
hmm, idon'tknow why. PMS uhh.

ok, i think i'm done here.
outx.

Labels: imy.ily.

Date : Monday, May 25, 2009
Time : 7:46 PM
Title : define friendship.

so define friendship for me, cos up till now i don't think i know what's the meaning of true friendship. pathetic, yes i know.
for now, my definition of friendship is this :
someone who doesn't appreaciate his/her friends who is around him/her. someone who only comes looking for you when they need help in something and leaves you just like that. who comes back as and when they like it.
very negative huh? yes, it is. This is not really how i define friendship but then again, such characteristics do exist in my definition of friendship.
This are all based on experience, friends come and go.

My dear girl, i think you know who you are, I just want an answer from you and i want it now.
I want an honest answer and never ever tell lies cos we only want the truth from you.
Seriously, I don't think any of us wants this friendship to break apart but you are someway or somehow rather giving us signs that you wish for this to happen. I do want to let you know that by you doing such things, i think you what you did best to some of us, you did left an impact on us and hurt us. So my dear friend, my question to you is,
Is the friendship important to you?

so yeah, by reading my post, i think any idiot would know that i'm feeling rather low.
yes, i am and i don't wish to hide it. There are few things which are going on in my mind right now. studies, friendship etc. promo exams is just around the corner, oh wait, gp is this wednesday. like wtf, better switch my bloody damn brain to exam mode. how da hell am i gonna do well in gp when i've never did pass any of the gp essays that i've done so far in school. and and and, this saturday is gonna be the weigh-in day for the ivp. and i'm fcuking underweight. now how da hell am i suppposed to gain weight by friday and we're talking bout 2-3 kg.?

i'm doomed, thats all i can say.
god, please take away my life while i'm sleeping.
i've got nothing else to say.
both physically and mentally tired.

oh matt, thank you for not coming.

AND AGAIN, WHAT IS FRIENDSHIP?

Labels: what?

Date : Sunday, May 24, 2009
Time : 4:01 PM
Title : fizah,fizah,fizah.

HELLO earthlings,

yesterday, hmm.. woke up early. yes, it was a saturday and i woke up early, as early as 9.30 am.
for? to meet bf. yerp, to study. yes, study and nothing else. ^^ so yeah, the plan was to study at NLB but due to the fact that we couldn't find a place to settle down, we changed our venue to the macdonalds near NLB. yes, macdonald. very kental, i know. but who cares, right? cos our intention was to study and we did. erm, at least i did. HAHA. so yeah, study study study then went off around 3 plus i think. yeah, took a bus to je ( its our 197, not 198 lahh. HAIYO. wrong information) and met girlfriends next. YERP, had dinner with them. it was like a so called reunion dinner for us, haha. yeah, its been some time since we girls last met and talk. so yeah. too bad one couldn't join us, maybe next time ah girl. :) took some pictures at where? at the busstop. HAHa, kental super kental i tell you. busstop punn jadi lahh. did that while waiting for the bus, planned to take 51 to je but because of fizah's kancong-ness, she hailed the wrong bus. it was 30 and not 51. board the bus and alighted at taman jurong ( i miss my house, sobs ) because there was one drunken guy who kept looking at us as if he's gonna do something to us siahh, ( ok, paranoid. ) then then then took another bus to j.west then another bus to home. damn, i actually have to take the bus for three times before i can actually reach my house. but its okay, yesterday was still the best day for me, i mean for this year ( so far lahh. )

my english is like getting from bad to worse.
oh yeah, i wrote " i love you" on someone's palm. ^^
k, i'm done.

BYE earthlings.

Date : Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Time : 11:15 PM
Title : the army.

i'm feeling damn bloody tired.
i can barely open my bloody eyes.
really tired but i got lots of homework to do.
how?
and best still, i got the spa thingy tomorrow.
fcuk you, chemistry.
i hate chemistry, yes i hate it.
I don't even know why i'm taking up this subject. * wonder *

and i miss my pokemon master :)

oh yeah, i'm thinking of signing up for the army.
should i or should i not?
or maybe join the police force.
obviously not CD okay en jia.

Date : Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Time : 9:20 PM
Title : yada yada yada.

let's blog in point form.

- HELLO.
- yesterday, went to the movies with the girls.
- Angels and Demons, great show.
- Surprisingly, i didn't sleep throughout the show but enjoyed it.
- Yes, I didn't sleep okay boyfriend.
- Hang out with boyfriend after that.
- How i wish it could last longer but too bad i got a curfew.
- damn you, curfew.
- So today, skipped school.
- Yes, i skipped school.
- Head was super duper heavy in the morning.
- Stayed at home the whole day. ( good girl )
- Wanted to meet boyfriend but mum didn't allow me to go out since i'm on sick leave.
- Like wtf, sorry boyfriend.
- Did some notes on physics and managed to flip through mob notes.
- Got the intention of doing my gp essay but didn't do it. ( no motivation!!! )
- ok, i think this is it.
- BYE.

Labels: bad bad headache.

Date : Sunday, May 17, 2009
Time : 10:50 PM
Title : kachangivore. :))

There is this something, something which is pulling me back in anything or everything that I do. I hate this, I seriously do. Having this thing just stops me from doing what I initially want to do. I know this sounds weird cos at the end of the day, there is no such thing as whatever is happening to me now. It is just me, me Nur Azima Bte Abd Aziz.

Maybe it is because of the doubts that I’ve been having since the start or maybe because I’ve been single for quite some time and suddenly I’m attached.

Well, I don’t know. I want the whole thing to change cos I think I finally got someone who I’m comfortable with and who really loves me like no other. Yes, I found someone, someone by the name Muhammad Danial Bin Sumanan. Despite the fact that he’s retarded, fat and has sepet eyes, I still love him. Okay wait, I’m totally joking bout the retarded and fat part but not lying bout the sepet eyes. Boyfriend uh, I don’t mind having someone who has sepet eyes by my side cos I think I’ve seen too much of the big eyes people. For example, my mum and my aunt. haha! yerp, big eyes. so yeah, nothing else to say except for ILY, dann. <33

so yesteday was MI Official Opening.

kuku nathan siah the school, now then official opening. weird weird.

so yeah, was involved in the carnival.

i had lotsa fun with my beloved classmates, except for one lah okayy.

you know who you are bitch.

fcukerlolo, trying to act ' jambu " aye. and not doing any job. fuck you!

so yeah, managed to hit the target by selling only nuts, packet drinks and mineral water.

three cheers for 09S5. :))

didn't expect the mineral water to be sold out also though, haha. seriously.

some even bought two boxes of it,

" rumah water supply kena potong uh " - that was what shaz said.

haha, but seriously. was shocked when they actually bought two boxes of mineral water.

so at 4 o'clock i think, started to pack up and clean up our area and also arranging back the tables and chairs/benches.

took picture with classmates and off i go.

hang out with bf till bout nine i think and home was next.

" meet prataman and viknesh_97" you and your nonsense.

and that was it, that was how i spent my saturday.

SHAZ, aku da update.

happy now?

k,BYE.

Date : Thursday, May 14, 2009
Time : 10:15 PM
Title : Mr Lim Bock Seng.

well, HELLO.
school was okay i guess except for the fact that my maths teacher, MR LIM BOCK SENG, is leaving us. OMG, seriously..i still can't believe that he's leaving us for good. an emotional day indeed, for me and my classmates. ( maths ). the best thing was that he sang a song for us titled Always be in my memory. well, you are gonna be our memory cos you're one freaking good and patient teacher. i think there will be no other teacher who can't stand us like you do. plus you got a cute way of venting your anger when you're mad with us. hees. oh ya! he's going to transfer to RV. I shall sneak into RV and meet him ehk one day. haha.
so yeahh, was moodless after maths class onwards. yerp, me and shaz.
after school was training for me. from 5.30 to i think 7.30? yeahh.
i can swear to you that my body is aching bad, almost everywhere.
tml? another round of training. no, two rounds of training for tml. inside and outside school.
sianzz. -.-, but ivp is just round the corner so yeah.
okay, i think i'm done here.
k, BYE.

Date : Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Time : 10:09 PM
Title : sleep needed.

I want to SLEEP!
but i've got Chemistry and MOB homework to do.
help!!! I need some motivation people.

Labels: date with mr teddy.

Date : Monday, May 11, 2009
Time : 10:38 PM
Title :

I don't know why i'm feeling this way.
I feel like a failure.
wait, I am one.

Date :
Time : 2:29 PM
Title : go away, can?

Labels: TWLOHA band.

Date : Saturday, May 09, 2009
Time : 10:40 PM
Title : [insert title please]

HELLO...
bad weather = bad mood
bad mood = hungry all the time
hungry all the time = find food all the time
find food all the time = eating all the time
eating all the time = gain weight

yerp, i feel fat now.
no joke, even my maid said that i'm fat now.
omg omg, have to get rid of the extra fats mann.

so what did i do today? basically nothing except for lazing around.
i'm supposed to be studying but no motivation to do so.
so sianzzzz.
taught lil bro how to use the web cam today and my god, he won't stop.
kept asking me to take photos with him, irritating.
no choice but to do it cos i'm totally aware that tears will start rolling down his cheeks if i were to ignore.
so yeah, being a " good " sister, i took photos with him.
these are the pictures :









so yeah, there you go.
thats all i have for today.
BYE.

Labels: web cam fun.

Date : Wednesday, May 06, 2009
Time : 10:06 PM
Title : fcuk.

i'm seriously addicted to pictures like the one on top.
got a folder full of such photos.
scene kids are cool, i mean their hairstyles to be exact.
ok, hasbi? ( as if you read my blog).

Labels: chemisty can go suck ballzz.

Date : Tuesday, May 05, 2009
Time : 11:40 PM
Title : SLEEPY ME.

Labels: zzz

Date : Monday, May 04, 2009
Time : 8:56 PM
Title : meet the mad scientist.

today is monday and i'm already feeling so fucking shagged.
kept yawning in class like nobody business.
idk why i feel so friggin tired today
ya know, despite the long holiday that i just had.
haixx.
had napha test today and i swear i'm so not gonna get a gold for it.
cos my sit and reach and standing broad jump sucks.
seriously, it sucks and i hate it.
blaming the damn teacher, ask me go tie up my hair when i never ever tie up my hair before in my life. grr.
well, i still have the other three stations and 2.4 run to work on so i have to really do well on those.
met him today and feel so, idk the feeling cannot be described uh.
i feel as though i'm wasting his time, ya know, by making him come all the way down to jurong just to meet me. i'm sorry bf, i think i failed in being your girlfriend.

ok, thats all i guess for today.
super tired.

oh yeah,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY EN JIA!

and again,
i'm not sure if i'm ready for this.

Labels: but ily.

Date : Saturday, May 02, 2009
Time : 8:43 PM
Title : feelings.

I'm pretending, yes I am. I maybe smilling or laughing my ass out on the outside but then again inside me, deep down I'm crying, scared and angry at myself. I'm scared of the challenges that I have to go through in life and not knowing if I'm able to make it to the end. This is making me cry cos I'm just too angry at myself because i'm just too useless in being a daughter,student,sister,friend,girlfriend,classmate. Yes, i feel so useless and there is no one to be blamed except for yours truly. Sometimes, I just don't know how to respond and it makes me feel so useless and dumb when it happens. I shall start getting back to reality and set my goals right.

1st mission : to pass promo one exam
( at least 2 h2 subs )

so yeah. what did i do today? practically nothing except for some cleaning and lazing around like one pig at home. My headache is getting worse, head is spinning like nobody business. Everytime i wanna do something, i end up lying on my bed cos of the bloody headache. fcuk. i hope it gets better tomorrow or best still later. buey tahan already. i wanna go out tomorrow but where can i go cos obviously i'm stuck at home cos momma is going to jb tmrw and i can't follow cos i haven't renew my passport photo. like wtf! i wanna get some new shoes larhx. sianzzz. ok, i think i'm done.

SHAZ! AKU DA UPDATE!!!! HAPPY TAK? you better say that you're happy cos you got no choice. oh yeah, chill uh babe.. i guess that is his way of celebrating. so chillax. don't angry angry okay kawan.

ok, done.

i miss muhammad danial bin sumanan.
yes, i miss boyfriend.
love.

Labels: zzz