Date : Monday, March 30, 2009
Time : 8:39 PM
Title : so what now?

so what now?
stay on or transfer?
to what polytechnic?
is there even a place for me in any of the polytechnics?
i doubt so.
i'm lost, i'm truly fucking lost.
told mum about it, and all she could say was to take up extra classes.
but hey mum, do i even have time for that?
well, like my friend said, i can have time if i manage my time well.
am i aren't already doing so?
yes, i guess but no its not working.
that's what i'm aware of.
well, let's face it. i suck at this.
suck at managing my time and suck at erm anything that i do.
yeah, i suppose that's the reason why i'm not coping well.
when my friend is able to.
i suck, yes, i suck.
yes, i'm looking down myself, for now that is.
cos i'm unable to make a wise decision which concerns my future,
my education.
yes, my education.
so what now?
so what should i do?
anybody? any solution?
well, someone did gave me some solutions but i just don't know if i should carry it out or not.
should i or should i not?
argh!
i'm lost.

took my certificate and testimonial. finally, i'm out of yuhua but then again upon receiving the stuffs, i started to miss the school. its funny though, one moment you're elated that you're out of the bloody school and the other moment you're just sad that you have to leave the school. well, maybe its because of the memories that you had there and all the friends that you made there.
well, talking bout friends and peers. MI has been great i guess so far, the people there are friendly as ever except for a few. you can feel the warmth there and i'm not lying, especially with the silat-ers. yeah, i like them, cool people. hahs! so yeahh, education part? well, read the top part of the post and you'll get it but if you don't then i've got nothing else to say.


i'm outs.

Labels: failing.

Date : Saturday, March 28, 2009
Time : 9:55 PM
Title : ideas in action or shopping spree?

aloha readers.
its saturday today, so i'm not supposed to wake up early today but i had to cos i had to meet my group mates to discuss about the Ideas in action thingy. so what the fcuk! disturb my beauty sleep. :((. so yeah, early in the morning at 11 o'clock i think, got a message from shaz, " da bgn? ( wake up readi anot in singlish)" so mother-ly lah she...checking if i've woken up or not. hahs!
woke up, got ready and blah blah blah. met her at je then meet q at bugis. destination of the day was the national library. so yeah, walked from bugis junction to the library and shaz was complaining like one kuku bout the sun. next time bring an umbrella with you lahh girl, so scared of the sun for wadd. reached the place and we were lost, yeah we were lost. fyi, its me n q first time there so we were expecting for shaz to lead but but but that useless girl also donnoe the way. asked for our way and settled down at the applied science level. found a few things for our project and off we go to the next destination, MAKAN place. yeah, our stomachs was grumbling so we quickly went to find a place to eat. we ended up eating at Pastamania. me, being the hungy ghost there, ate alot. not really alot lahh, but more than the other two. hahs! so after makan-ing..hmm. initially the plan was to find a place to seat at Starbucks so that we could continue on our discussion but but but the plan changed. decided to stop the discussion and go shopping. hahs! yeahh, thats what we did. lazy pre u ones. didn't managed to get anything for myself cos nothing caught my eye. haixx. so yeah, home was next.

i got nothing more to say, bye.

oh ya! just now got one fcuking pervert guy in the mrt.
he scared the hell out of shaz's life. haha.
i'm disgusted by him. stupid uncle!
you're not even fit to be called as an uncle, you fucker.

Labels: falling.

Date : Friday, March 27, 2009
Time : 10:08 PM
Title : butt pain!

school like normal.
had maths and MOB today.
maths test? hmm.. i think i'm gonna fail, wait! its not that i think but i WILL fail.
MOB? ok lahh, normal only. oh ya, mrs chan, please stop acting cute..you suck at it. hahs!
oh ya! surprisingly, khai didn't sleep today. haha! he was really attentive and he managed to answer all the questions asked by mrs chan. not bad not bad.
after school had the " ideas in action " briefing. boring only, ended up not listening to whatever the teacher is saying and started to make stupid jokes with shaz. haha! SGC, cpt pikir.
then it was time for cca,
i think today i got the mood for silat if minus the pain that i'm having on my butt. hahs!
yeah! my butt is in pain and i'm not kidding here. i don't really know the cause of it though.
after silat was dinner with the same ol people.
it's fun hanging out with those people, there's always something new which is gonna happen that you can expect when you're with them. well, not forgetting their dirty conversations.
conversations uhh not conservations ok cherr.
trained back home.

and here i am.

wo ai shang ni le
= go find out urself what it means -> en jia teach me one.

wo ai shang ni le, a2.
your determination, its making me go crazy.

Labels: wonder.

Date : Thursday, March 26, 2009
Time : 9:38 PM
Title : titration, you suck.

so minus the girl face and paste my face on it with the same expression.
again, i couldn't made it possible to open up my eyes today.
slept late again yesterday, see lahh sleep late again. yeah, slept late to do some revision.
hardworking? nahh, not really. just doing my part as a student. hahs!
so how's school today?
ermm.. BORING! SUCKS! FUCK SCHOOL !
well, please believe me on the boring part but not the others cos i was just being extra here.
so yeah, basically i had erm.. maths,gp,chemistry and physics.
yeah, double science today. super boring i tell you, lucky thing shaz was there so she can entertain me with all the dumb jokes and recapturing of some funny moments in secondary school. oh, how i miss the ol days.
did titration today during chemistry.
i hate titration, i swear i hate it but i got no choice but to do it. argh !
well, fyi my brain is not really working now ( insufficient of oxygen uhh maybe, )
so i think better stop here and start hitting my books before someone starts calling me a
LAZYBUM, thanks uh en jia.

kk, byebye.

Date : Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Time : 10:07 PM
Title : trying hard to open up my bloody eyes.

so yeah, dragged myself to school today.
i swear i got no mood to go to school today due to the lack of sleep.
had to burn the midnight oil to do some revision on atomic structure.
well, i was not really studying. i was merely copying notes from the link and chatting with my seniors. yeahh.
so yeah, slept at er one plus i think.
woke up a bit later than usual then get ready blah blah blah and off to school.
how's school today? er..sucks! cos i simply couldn't open up my bloody damn eyes today.
i think i spent most of my time sleeping in class, literally. sorry teachers.
today is wednesday, so after school is the normal thing, cca!.
this one another one, i swear i had no mood to go for silat today and please don't ask me why.
so yeah, physical training blah blah blah then train abit then done.
next was dinner with the seniors at Makan shiok.
didn't really ate cos stomach was making problems, so yeah.
home was next.
trained back home and here i am.
blogging.

oh yeah, i swear i'm missing the people who gave me the thing inside the picture.
well, actually..i see two of them everyday, in school but the other two.
one is in Redang and the other is busy with work i guess.
well, just wanna say that i'm missing you guys. miss hanging out with you guys.
go sentosa again?
where's the laughter that i always hear during recess time? and all the abnormal sounds that you guys make?
i'm missing all these things, i seriously do.
well, meet up soon aites guys.
so cupid hit me on the right spot,
the crush is getting deeper as days passed.

Date : Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Time : 9:17 PM
Title : serial killer.

homework, you're killing me.
piling up each day like nobody business.
when can i ever adapt with the way of studying? i wonder.
this make me worry, worry bout the consequences.
just what if i couldn't make this year or there is no need to talk bout the end of year, lets just talk bout the promo 1 examination, can i make it?
the main question that keeps popping out in my mind or should i say have been stationary in my mind since i start to realise that i could not hand up my assignments on time.
is it because of me not managing my time well or there isn't enough time for me to really adapt?
god, i need help. should i go for tuition classes? wait, do i even have time in the first place.
monday to friday, i'm packed with school stuff. it is really impossible for me to be having tuition after school cos that will only make me feel even more tired.
have to hit the books now.

Labels: enlightened.

Date : Sunday, March 22, 2009
Time : 9:36 PM
Title : to the beach.

slept super late yesterday and woke up super late today. hahs!
woke up and got ready to go out..to where? to the beach.
i wasn't really in the mood to go out actually, to be precised..to go out with my family.
wanted to go out with the other pesilats lerr.
so yeah, in the end..i tagged along. -_-
basically, i planned to study there. haha ! yeah, don't start rubbing your eyes. i wanted to study there, semangat ehk? yeah..really semangat.
but but but..
my plan crashed when my uncle actually brought monopoly there. i even had the thought of multi-tasking, you know study and play monopoly at the same time but nahh..
so yeah, played monopoly till my butt feel like er...idk how to describe.
eventually, we stopped playing after everybody started to complain bout their butts. hahs!
so some went to rent the bicycles and some slacked around and ate.
so yada yada yada.. went to dinner blah blah blah. sent lil bro to his dock and home was next.
like finally, home sweet home.
and as per usual..here i am blogging . hmm...

i think i'm done here.
have to study for the test tml.
oh, how i hate studying.. when can this stop.

so how can i link our conversations..?

Labels: thinking.

Date : Friday, March 20, 2009
Time : 10:43 PM
Title : muay thai session. :))

so yeah, basically what we did today was a " light " session of warm-ups and off we went to our destination which was NUS. yeahh ! we went there for the sharing of martial arts thingy. we had a muay thai session with the NUS people. so fun lahh i tell you ! i think i like muay thai better than silat. haha! like one of the seniors said, " close down silat, open muay thai". good idea le actually, haha ! but muay thai is way way way more rougher than silat cos no vest! we fight with only the aid of boxing gloves and shin guards. damn painful i tell you but nice. especially when you're kicking with ur power leg. the feeling is so syiokk. haha ! right, enough bout the training session lah.
so next was toilet time, i mean shower time. wash up then blah blah blah and next was our all time favourite. DINNER TIME! haha, of cos lah we like, our teacher blanje us wadd. hahs. so yeah. dinner then home. had a great time sharing stories in the bus with the other seniors.
and now,
here i am blogging.

i'm tired so stop here.


your determination, i swear it is making me melt.
someway or somehow rather, i just couldn't take my eyes off you.

Labels: muay thai.

Date : Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Time : 10:14 PM
Title : day one. :))

so yeah.
woke up as early as 8 am to go to school for some consultation, maths this time round. :)
H2 maths, you're killing me man! how da hell can i cope with this freaking subject? there is no solution to it except...for tuition. god ! when can i escape from tuition siahh? tuition since pri four. haix. no choice ready.
right, enough crapping bout my academic stuff, now the fun part !!
so today was the first day of our cca training camp.
one word for the camp, " SUPERB " !!!
i swear it was fun, all the team building games and water, oh yeah..did i say water? oh yes, i did.
we were like soaking wet lahh. dumb seniors, nothing to do. well, actually it was part of the activities for today. we should be expecting water games and they did have it. So today was like er water day for us, all the activities that we did today invovled water except for the lame game, the skipping rope one. super lame i tell you, i bet everyone agrees with me. Those who played the game i mean. so after the games and all, it was time to pack up.
damn! i wish it didn't end, was having so much fun lah with them. hmm.
nehmind, tomorrow still got training but not gonna be as fun as today cos they gonna torture us.
so yeah, after packing up and washing up, went for dinner together at macdonalds.
pathetic siall ! the whole day eat fast food, can grow fat siahh like that.
so i was lucky to have en jia who finished up my food. thanks uh horny boy, you and ur air mani.
haha!
so next was home.
and now i'm here blogging on what happened today.
oh yeah, to the seniors ( guys to be precised ).
i'm not a minah lah okayy! minahs don't wear fbt shorts. :))

oh yeah, i realised that i couldn't take my eyes off him today. haha !
well, don't ask me why cos i swear i don't have the answer to that.
he got a new haircut! hahs..very the clean cut, i loike !

i feel so paiseyy lahh! grr.

so, another day with them tomorrow.
this is so tiring.

i'm dne here.

Labels: wonder.

Date : Monday, March 16, 2009
Time : 4:26 PM
Title : homework marathon.

woke up early today, early as in 8 plus plus.
have to like head to school for some chemistry consultation with ms jee.
so yeah, did managed to clear some doubts that i had since er the lessons started.
haha ! was to er shy? lazy? to ask her but couldn't wait no more since somebody gave me a wake up call that day. that person is mr tan ! yeah, mr tan, my chemistry teacher in secondary school.
was sitting with him that day with fiqah and he was like asking us what course/school we are going and there i was telling him that i got MI and blah blah blah. so guess what he told me..
" wah, h2 chemistry uh. very hard you know ".
after hearing what he said, i got really worried and i'm not lying here cos I am super duper worried.
If a teacher who have once taught me seem not to have any confidence in me, how can i be able to have the thing called CONFIDENCE in me. god! i've been pondering bout this, what if i cannot make it? what should i do? transfer to a poly or just do my best for this year and if i still cannot make it, retain and transfer to another faculty next year? oh, i swear i don't wish to retain or transfer, total waste of time. no kidding. even though i'mma girl and I don't have to go through NS and i got lotsa of time to catch up, still.. i don't wish to waste the precious time. sombody, help me ! hmm.

something i got from facebook after doing a quiz ..

Labels: worried.

Date : Sunday, March 15, 2009
Time : 10:59 PM
Title : school holidays. :(

hello readers.
well, basically holidays are starting. i mean tomorrow, yeah our holiday starts tomorrow.
its only for a week, a pathetic one week which i don't think i may consider it as holiday also cos i'll be expected to return to school four days. sucks lor! so yeahh, i hate it when its the holidays and we're expected to come back to school for some activities but then again, i guess its for our own good. So...no harm coming back.
yesterday yesterday yesterday
went down to yuhua for the NPCC annual camp thingy. sad to say, the camp was abit dead. didn't expect that kind of you know but nevermind. did enjoy the performances during the campfire especially when Mr Tan was dancing. haha ! gelek power punya. oh yeah ! the best part bout yesterday was actually me meeting the two assholes. Only god knows how much i miss spending time with them, the laughters and all. the good ol times. so yeah, lepaskan rindu lah orang kate. so yeah, talk talk take pictures and all then sit around till it was time for me to go home. father picked me up and off we went to zouk to send the catering stuff.
and finally for today, didnt do much except for eating and sleeping.
yeah, i'm like serious here. didn't do much except for eating and sleeping. mother was so super fcuking lazy to bring us out today so we just laze around at home.
at around i'm not sure what time it was.. we did our basic thing which is to visit grandma at the hospital. followed by dinner with the usual peeps at the usual place and home was next.
so now,
home sweet home.
blogging.
toodles people.
gotta hit the books and not the sack yet.
got alot of catching up to do !

Labels: peace.

Date : Thursday, March 12, 2009
Time : 9:24 PM
Title : flu, please go away.

well, hello readers.
didn't attend school today due to the bad flu that i'm having now.
being home all day makes me so restless.
there is like nothing to do at home, seriously.
i did made an effort to flip through my lecture notes but the effort was worthless cos nothing seems to be absorbed.
this is was all because of the bad headaches and bad flu i had.
so, i had to like force myself to get some rest before anything gets worse.
sleep eat sleep eat, that is all i could do in the morning and afternoon.
so yeah, went to the doctor with aunt and the doctor said that whatever i'm suffering now is just a common flu.
dot dot dot.
was prescribed some medicine like cough syrup and some lozenges for my sore throat.
oh! how i hate eating medicine. the taste truly suck!
so, tomorrow is another school day for me.
can't afford to miss school tomorrow or i'll be having a hard time in catching up plus homework will pile up even higher for me.
and there's a bridging module for maths and briefing for camp.
so die die must attend school tomorrow.
and i still don't know how to do my chemistry and maths homework!
shaz ! , help me.

ok readers.
i'm done here.

Date : Monday, March 09, 2009
Time : 9:45 PM
Title : sick bird.

to be exact or to specify, i'm not feeling bored.
i'm feeling sick.
yeahh,
was having flu the whole day or should i say since yesterday night.
having flu sucks big time.
was not able to concentrate in school the whole day,
head was on the table most of the time today.
so tomorrow is another school day, haix.
i guess i should be turning in now so i'll be able to stay awake during my classes tml.
adios people.
oh yeah, i notice something.
my posts are getting shorter and random-er each day.
sorry people.

Labels: message.

Date : Friday, March 06, 2009
Time : 3:09 PM
Title : latecomer.

hello people/readers.
so yeah, i was late for school today by er one minute i think.
so now i'm stuck with detention.
not really that kind of detention when you have to wait till 6 or what lahh
but we can go anywhere/ do anything then sign out at the general office at 6.
so decided to go home since we are done with school at 12.
headed to west mall with shaz and hanafi for breakfast cum lunch at kfc. BORING! hahs.
aini didn't tagged along cos she was going to the library to study. hmm.
no lecture/tutorials or whatever for Millenians today cos today is Sports Fiesta.
so yeah, participants participate in their events and the others do all the shouting/screaming/shrieking.
sports fiesta was okay lahh,but zircon not champion this year! so sad.
its okay zircons, we still got next year.
i guess this is it.
nothing much to post.

outx.

oh yeah! missy dumbass, u're missed.

Date : Monday, March 02, 2009
Time : 7:45 PM
Title : tough luck.

current mood/feeling/whatever you wanna name it: stressed up :(
I'm currently stating a fact here, well facts do change so yeahh.
previously, i can't wait for school to start officially but now... how i wish it was my orientation weeks.
homework are starting to pile like nobody business and i don't understand a single thing on stuff like how do you go by doing it and all.
stress stress stress.
this always happen to me, going all haywire even before anything happens.
cos maybe i wonder alot, bout you know if i can cope or not in the future which is obviously impossible for now.
hmm...
nothing could be done except for ermm..to try my best in everything?
oh yeah! silat trainings have been great for me.
well, at least i did learn something new after every training and had lotsa fun also.
hees.
but the seniors are getting on my nerves, all the kaki bully.
boo you guys!

ok, gotta go.
got lots of hwk to clear.
toodles.