Date : Saturday, May 02, 2009
Time : 8:43 PM
Title : feelings.

I'm pretending, yes I am. I maybe smilling or laughing my ass out on the outside but then again inside me, deep down I'm crying, scared and angry at myself. I'm scared of the challenges that I have to go through in life and not knowing if I'm able to make it to the end. This is making me cry cos I'm just too angry at myself because i'm just too useless in being a daughter,student,sister,friend,girlfriend,classmate. Yes, i feel so useless and there is no one to be blamed except for yours truly. Sometimes, I just don't know how to respond and it makes me feel so useless and dumb when it happens. I shall start getting back to reality and set my goals right.

1st mission : to pass promo one exam
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so yeah. what did i do today? practically nothing except for some cleaning and lazing around like one pig at home. My headache is getting worse, head is spinning like nobody business. Everytime i wanna do something, i end up lying on my bed cos of the bloody headache. fcuk. i hope it gets better tomorrow or best still later. buey tahan already. i wanna go out tomorrow but where can i go cos obviously i'm stuck at home cos momma is going to jb tmrw and i can't follow cos i haven't renew my passport photo. like wtf! i wanna get some new shoes larhx. sianzzz. ok, i think i'm done.

SHAZ! AKU DA UPDATE!!!! HAPPY TAK? you better say that you're happy cos you got no choice. oh yeah, chill uh babe.. i guess that is his way of celebrating. so chillax. don't angry angry okay kawan.

ok, done.

i miss muhammad danial bin sumanan.
yes, i miss boyfriend.
love.

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